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My first white hair: thoughts on being 27

February 3, 2010

This past weekend, while Jeremiah and I were talking in bed, I thought my life was just about over. As we were engaging in meaningful conversation, he blurts out and says, “Honey, you have a white hair!”

I look at him like he’s crazy. Why did he have to tell me that? My husband loves to play and joke and sometimes it’s just not funny.

“Oh, let me get it!” he says.

He pulls the white hair out and I look at it: “It’s blonde! Not white!”

“Look at it again. It’s not blonde,” he says.

I moved it around for the light to catch it at different angles. I studied it for a bit. “Okay… it is white. Ughh. I can’t believe how old I’m getting! That makes me so sad.”

“Oh everyone gets a white hair once in while no matter how old you are. It’s okay babe, you’re beautiful,” he says.
………..
Well I’m not sure it’s been “okay” with me lately. A lot of my friends and myself included are in the stage of growing our families. I think just about every facebook profile pic I see has a sonogram on it (and it’s awesome). I’ve been told by acquaintances that I look like I “have it all together” now that I have a child (really? Hmm). Jeremiah and I looked at some pictures when we were first dating and we look like babies (that was 6 years ago). Now, he’s 30 and I’m 27. And to top it off, my 10 year high school reunion is this year.

Everything is just happening so fast.Where does time go? And will it really be okay as I age?

I’ve had these thoughts way before the white hair episode and I’m still trying to figure out how I can best give God my worry about growing older. But I’ve been encouraged by these verses:

“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?” – Matt. 6:25-26

There’s so much wisdom here because God knows the natural tendency for us is to worry… what’s for lunch, what to wear, where the money will come from, who we’ll marry, who our kids will marry… Things that are not even here yet.

Life itself, however, is more valuable than anything else. God sustains us and gives us the ability to experience life to its absolute fullest: to feel the sunshine, laugh over meals, write out words, engage in meaningful relationships, drink a warm cup coffee, share his truth with others, know him through his Word, and feel our very own breath. As his children, he cares deeply for us and for our concerns. And he wants us to depend on his daily provision, not what we plan for ourselves.

I think he understands my struggles in facing the fact that life just happens and we grow older. But I think he might also wants me to realize that the best is yet to come because he’s on my side and no matter if I grow weaker or my looks change a little, what ultimately matters is the life change that happens in my heart as the days get faster.

If I do end up finding a white hair again and I (or Jeremiah) probably will, I told God that I’m going to thank him that I even have a head of hair.

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8 Comments leave one →
  1. Lora permalink
    February 3, 2010 9:51 am

    Beautiful post, Samantha, and very relevant (esp to me). I love your refreshing honesty!

  2. February 3, 2010 11:22 am

    Thanks so much, Lora! You’re so encouraging 🙂

  3. February 3, 2010 7:51 pm

    Y’know, it doesn’t matter what age (I’m 39) and my wife’s about to hit 40 in less than a month…our approach, since we’ve been married (nearly 17 years), is that age is merely a number (although each of us has had that brief “freakout” moment at the milestones). And what’s been so cool is that with God 1st in our lives, life together continues to get better and better, as God uses our spouse as one of the tools to mold us daily. I love that…painful as it might be to admit.

  4. February 3, 2010 11:28 pm

    I remember being in a women’s book study group and we were told to figure out which category we fit into.
    a) young married woman
    b) single woman
    c) daughter
    d) older woman

    I looked at this list and had to admit (at 29, then!) that in the group I was a part of I was the older woman! I had been married for 9 years and had 3 children and yet I still wanted to put myself in the “young married woman” category.

    It came as a bit of a shock and I took a bit of time to actually get over it but soon enough I embraced the category of “older woman” and realized that I did in fact have something to offer the younger women and that wasn’t necessarily a bad thing!

  5. February 4, 2010 10:50 am

    “What ultimately matters is the life change that happens in my heart as the days get faster.”

    So true. It’s the beauty of the heart that matters.

    BTW, I got my first gray hair at 16. It hasn’t spread much, so don’t fret yet! 😉

  6. February 4, 2010 1:00 pm

    I can’t believe how incredibly encouraging you guys are. Yep, the reality is that we all have something to offer no matter what. God uses age, experience- everything.

    I think sometimes I just have a shallow way of thinking at times as far as what beauty really is… if that makes sense.

    Danielle, that’s amazing. So I guess my husband was right that everyone gets one 🙂

  7. February 10, 2010 11:32 am

    Time starts going faster after 30 =) And the 40 year olds would probably say it’s even faster. Same for the 50 year olds. And on and on.

    But your perspective is a great one. If our lives are vapors, then a white hair along the way is no biggie. And today is a better day than tomorrow to embrace and meet with God.

  8. cescfiberglass permalink
    February 14, 2011 3:50 pm

    Strange thing. I saw my first white hair the other week to, and I am 27……

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